Today was just as hard to wake up as you would assume.
A weekend of concerts, food, football and more food!
I didn't want to get out of bed.
I'm glad I did of course, it was just tough.
I decided just cardio today. Tred, Bike, Row. I played this "Fish Game" on the rowing machine. It was weird, I did not understand it in the least! There were no instructions, it was just an option on the menu, so I thought "hey why not?" but then it was really weird, there were 3 sizes of fish on the little screen, I have no idea which fish I was supposed to be, or how they moved or how the scoring worked! I just know that sometimes the score would go up, and then sometimes it would go down...
So if there are any Fish Game Row experts out there, some help would be great!
That was my workout today, I'm glad I went.
Okay, now we can talk body image.
I was reading a blog post I follow on Facebook, and it was all about not comparing yourself to others. Great message.
The photo she used?
An amazing and incredibly attractive body.
I'm talking perfectly round underboob (her shirt was pulled up and she was laying on her side) (boobs clearly fake, not judging, not my point, just stating, they were perfectly round), her stomach had muscle lines all down it, she was tanned, she looked like she had just worked out, or was in the middle of a workout (I don't know what kind of workout you do in a bikini bottom, with your shirt pulled up to your underboob, but again - no judgy). She had no pooch, perfectly sculpted legs, no thigh fat... like - why is she the image telling me not to compare myself to anyone? Why is the perfect, amazing image, telling me not to judge my own imperfect body, on someone else?
That just makes no sense what so ever.
I have imperfections.
I read one time a good exercise is to stand in front of the mirror, every now and then, maybe once a week, maybe everyday, however often you need it, and list 5 physical things you like about your own body.
and yes, at first I scoffed at it.
Then, one day, I was feeling down about myself. I had just got out of the shower and was trying to decide what I wanted to wear that day. (The struggle is real y'all)
I made myself do it, there were no witnesses, no one to make fun of me for doing the exercise, no one to laugh at my 5 choices...
And I will admit... it was easier than I expected.
It turns out, there is a lot more I like about my body than I first realized!
I am so constantly focused on what I don't like, I forget to compliment myself!
And no, no one has to agree with you. These don't have to be things you have ever received a compliment about...
Just choose 5 you love. 5 you find attractive.
I found, I have more than 5.
I can list them if you like. If you don't care you can just skip this next part (winky face)
I like my feet, I like my legs, I like my height, I like my ass, I like my side ab muscles, I like my breasteses, I like my collar bone, I like my hands, I like my back, I like my lips, i like my eyes.
and That's just off the top of my head! (I also like the top of my head)
So, it can be done. It is WAY easier to point out the things I don't like.
WAY easier. But that doesn't help anything.
And that's what this whole journey is about, being done with a certain place I have reached in my life, and wanting to change.
So no list of things I want to change (although if I do a quick count, there are 18 things I want to change physically about my body... that's a few more than 5).
Can we actually begin to look at ourselves the way those commercials for soap, and cereal, tell us to.
Actually build each other, and ourselves up.
I will try.
I will try and stop asking why that girl isn't sweating as much as me, or why she can lift more than me. and why she is 7 years younger... haha all things I cannot change.
Are you ready for changes? Are you bettering your life?
Are you bettering my life? Cuz if someone else could just come do it for me already... that'd be great. I'm tired of this BS.
I really do have a great, wonderful, supportive SO. I lucked out.
I really am ending this now.
- Signed "LoveWatchingMyOwnReflection"
Monday, 30 November 2015
Friday, 27 November 2015
GOLD MEDAL CHAMP!!!
Might be self declared, but who's opinion matters more than my own?
No one's.
I did it! I made it all 5 days this week!!
Today may have been my best day too!
I ran, and did whole body things, and ran again, then did more all body (as in I did an exercise to work my legs, then one for abs, then one for arms - all self directed on the mats)
It was great. Makes me feel good to have good days.
I know I need to work on more, and different muscle groups, but for now, simply showing up is progress!
This is my sweaty sweat band. Yes, an after-workout shot. I did not show up to the gym with a sweaty band. Although I did forget to grab socks, so I wore the same ones as yesterday.
Judge all you like, I can beat you up. You and your mom.
I don't have time, once again, to touch on the Body Image subject, I will just quickly say that it seems to be an issue for us all. Every type, every age, and both genders. I am working on mine, and I love the support I have, and I encourage you to work on yours.
This week hasn't been easy, I am still waiting for that reflection to change (the mirror one) I have read that it takes 2 weeks for you to start to notice a change... well I am what 4 weeks? and I notice nothing. I promise I won't get discouraged, I just want it.
I have been pretty tired all week, but I won't let that stop me from showing up again next week!
I will be striving for Platinum status!
I would like to thank my SO for being so supportive. I wouldn't be able to do this without his support (and I don't just mean because he is at home with the kid while I go... ) I mean he is encouraging, and supportive, and pretends to show and interest, even though I am sure it is all really boring to him.
He's pretty rad, and deserves a shout out. Even though he will never read this.
xoxox and a heart, and I love you always and forever? Mushy stuff?
Before y'all vomit, I'll stop.
I'm waving hello to you. Arrival time at the gym. 5 AM. Departure 6 AM. Death wish status = high.
I am bidding you goodbye now.
Have a good weekend, make good choices (just kidding. I never do)
Make a mess this weekend! Messes are more fun.
No one's.
I did it! I made it all 5 days this week!!
Today may have been my best day too!
I ran, and did whole body things, and ran again, then did more all body (as in I did an exercise to work my legs, then one for abs, then one for arms - all self directed on the mats)
It was great. Makes me feel good to have good days.
I know I need to work on more, and different muscle groups, but for now, simply showing up is progress!
This is my sweaty sweat band. Yes, an after-workout shot. I did not show up to the gym with a sweaty band. Although I did forget to grab socks, so I wore the same ones as yesterday.
Judge all you like, I can beat you up. You and your mom.
I don't have time, once again, to touch on the Body Image subject, I will just quickly say that it seems to be an issue for us all. Every type, every age, and both genders. I am working on mine, and I love the support I have, and I encourage you to work on yours.
This week hasn't been easy, I am still waiting for that reflection to change (the mirror one) I have read that it takes 2 weeks for you to start to notice a change... well I am what 4 weeks? and I notice nothing. I promise I won't get discouraged, I just want it.
I have been pretty tired all week, but I won't let that stop me from showing up again next week!
I will be striving for Platinum status!
I would like to thank my SO for being so supportive. I wouldn't be able to do this without his support (and I don't just mean because he is at home with the kid while I go... ) I mean he is encouraging, and supportive, and pretends to show and interest, even though I am sure it is all really boring to him.
He's pretty rad, and deserves a shout out. Even though he will never read this.
xoxox and a heart, and I love you always and forever? Mushy stuff?
Before y'all vomit, I'll stop.
I'm waving hello to you. Arrival time at the gym. 5 AM. Departure 6 AM. Death wish status = high.
I am bidding you goodbye now.
Have a good weekend, make good choices (just kidding. I never do)
Make a mess this weekend! Messes are more fun.
Thursday, 26 November 2015
4 and oh
Record for this week is looking promising...!! So far I am 4 and 0. One more day and this will be my first full week of gym attendance since I started gyming! I think that's a pretty good achievement.
Today was another typical day, warm up on the treader. 7 minutes of full running though! That is an improvement over the 5 minutes with some walking thrown in!
Today was an ab-aber day! I sat up and laid back down so many times. My favorite part was the laying down. My least favorite was when I made myself do scissor-y things.... If you don't know what that is:
You lay on your back (yay!!) and you put your legs out in front of you (where else would they go? folded under you like a pretzel?? No.) and you lift your legs off the ground just as much as you have to, like the closer to the ground your legs can be the hotter you are going to get! I lift my legs fairly high usually, today I was able to hold them a bit lower! Yay, personal improvement #2!
Anyway, once your legs are off the ground, you cross them back and forth, right over left, left over right, looking like scissors. They suck.
And I suck for making myself do them :( Twice!!!
I don't hate ALL ab exercises, I just hate how they hurt...
I did bicycles, and heel touches, and planks of all kinds.
For abs, the half hour almost isn't enough, I will need to give myself more time next time. But that sounds less fun, and more hurty... so maybe I will just add a quick 5 minute ab sess. onto my daily workout? I don't know, I will think about it, and don't you worry! I will for sure let you know what I decide to do.
Zumba!
I miss zumba class... whenst in zumba, I can cardio for the full hour (interval style) when I am cardio-ing by myself, I can barely get through 15 minutes.. I like the class atmosphere, I like the loud music, I like the dancing part! (When I dance in the gym people ask me to leave)
I am not super crazy over the Latin side, it's not my favorite genre, and my knees really don't like that dancing style. So why zumba? Well until someone else comes up with a huge dancing-cardio craze involving hip-hop, techno, and punk rock, I will have to stick with Zumba.
I have heard many many people talk about how they cannot dance.
I cannot dance.
I have zero rhythm. I do not understand flow. Or movement.
I do love zumba.
Just go do it. Just try it! Twice. Try it twice. It took me 2 times to really like it.
I will try harder to get out to a zumba class at the gym, and I will let you know how much I loved it. (or how much the instructor sucks...)
If not zumba, try Yoga. Try Aqua Size. Try Fuse-ball! Just try something!
Let's Don Johnson and Joanne McLeod this thing!
Get out there and get moving!
Okay I know I said I'd talk about body image again, and haven't, but I will soon. I promise. It's important. and it angers me.
Peace out
Today was another typical day, warm up on the treader. 7 minutes of full running though! That is an improvement over the 5 minutes with some walking thrown in!
Today was an ab-aber day! I sat up and laid back down so many times. My favorite part was the laying down. My least favorite was when I made myself do scissor-y things.... If you don't know what that is:
You lay on your back (yay!!) and you put your legs out in front of you (where else would they go? folded under you like a pretzel?? No.) and you lift your legs off the ground just as much as you have to, like the closer to the ground your legs can be the hotter you are going to get! I lift my legs fairly high usually, today I was able to hold them a bit lower! Yay, personal improvement #2!
Anyway, once your legs are off the ground, you cross them back and forth, right over left, left over right, looking like scissors. They suck.
And I suck for making myself do them :( Twice!!!
I don't hate ALL ab exercises, I just hate how they hurt...
I did bicycles, and heel touches, and planks of all kinds.
For abs, the half hour almost isn't enough, I will need to give myself more time next time. But that sounds less fun, and more hurty... so maybe I will just add a quick 5 minute ab sess. onto my daily workout? I don't know, I will think about it, and don't you worry! I will for sure let you know what I decide to do.
Zumba!
I miss zumba class... whenst in zumba, I can cardio for the full hour (interval style) when I am cardio-ing by myself, I can barely get through 15 minutes.. I like the class atmosphere, I like the loud music, I like the dancing part! (When I dance in the gym people ask me to leave)
I am not super crazy over the Latin side, it's not my favorite genre, and my knees really don't like that dancing style. So why zumba? Well until someone else comes up with a huge dancing-cardio craze involving hip-hop, techno, and punk rock, I will have to stick with Zumba.
I have heard many many people talk about how they cannot dance.
I cannot dance.
I have zero rhythm. I do not understand flow. Or movement.
I do love zumba.
Just go do it. Just try it! Twice. Try it twice. It took me 2 times to really like it.
I will try harder to get out to a zumba class at the gym, and I will let you know how much I loved it. (or how much the instructor sucks...)
If not zumba, try Yoga. Try Aqua Size. Try Fuse-ball! Just try something!
Let's Don Johnson and Joanne McLeod this thing!
Get out there and get moving!
Okay I know I said I'd talk about body image again, and haven't, but I will soon. I promise. It's important. and it angers me.
Peace out
Wednesday, 25 November 2015
Dear Diary:
Tuesday Nov. 24
It was another snowy day today.
But that didn't stop me!
I put on some big mittens, and big boots, and drove through the 10'' of snow! Just kidding it was like 1 cm...
I was late this morning, which just made my workout need to be a bit quicker, I just warmed up 5 mins, and did the leg machines. 30 reps each machine though! that's 10 more than I have been doing!
Improvement!
I used my cool down time to do some squats, because today was leg day, and I really want to tone all I can, and didn't want to miss out on squats because I spent extra time on machines!
I try not to be vein whilst working out, but I do enjoy cute workout clothes. and I judge those who wear ugly clothes, or the same thing every time. You know who you are. Why do they have to be so expensive? and why are they everywhere?
I have come to realize that the cuteness of your outfit does not a better athlete make.
But I wish it did. I wish you could accumulate cuteness points and exchange them for a calorie free danish, or an extra hour sleep.
THAT would motivate me to but those outfits that clog my inbox/news feed/ all ads ever...
I am tired again this afternoon. I need to figure that part out and change up. I don't like the 3 PM exhaustion... I want to make improvements and I feel I am struggling with this one.
That is/was all for Tuesday, so I stopped there and didn't post. I continue here...
Wednesday Nov. 25
Here we are once again.
Apparently sleeping in is the new "in" thing. Cuz I did it again today.
I even debated staying in bed. But once I convinced myself the extra 45 mins of sleep really wasn't worth it, I headed to the gym ("guy-m").
I ran for a little bit-le, then stretched, then biked all the way to China! Or so it felt like... the machine said I burned 40 calories, and that was enough for absolutely nothing at Tim's but I quit anyway.
I went a rowed. I rowed all the way to China! at least that one is even plausable... where you can't really bike to China... at least not from Canada... I mean, you can bike to China from like Nepal or Mongolia... provided you had the proper documentation... ANYWAY
I rowed my fake boat all the way to China to find ya. But you said you had to get your laundry clean!
I am getting off topic again.
Rowing over. back on the runner. Ran for another 5, and stretched it all out!
Nothing overly exciting seems to happen down in the WOR (Women's Only Room) but there were a few more people than usual coming down when I was leaving! That is a good sign - staying/getting / trying to be healthy is always a good thing. And I always support trying. Even if it means having to get off my couch (sad face)
HOWEVER - these two older ladies, like in their 50s? late 50s? 60s? I didn't ask. Anyway, two of them came in together, and I don't think anyone at the club gave them a tour before hand! they came in to the WOR with their jackets and bags and didn't seem to have any idea where to put them or where to change! That was entertaining.
Yes I did consider saying something. But I couldn't figure out how to word it without coming across as totally snooty!
I didn't want to discourage these ladies! So I didn't say anything, but I do hope they ask a worker (like someone who works at GoodLife, not just some random person employed in the workforce... although I bet if they did just ask anyone, they could probably assume there is a change room, and tell these ladies to look for a change room....... or ask a worker where the change room is....) my other thought is maybe they just don't have a lock? I should consider all possibilities before just judging... but I won't. I am just going to say I giggled a little.
Looking back I should have said something.
But how? That will haunt me for at least another 2 minutes.
Maybe they will be back tomorrow!? and I can offer advice and guidance. After all I am a seasoned athlete down here in the WOR. I will tell them to avoid those $ store lock and key locks though, not to worry.
Okay well this brings us to 4 PM now, and I was feeling the 3 PM tireds, so I made a coffee, and yes I do feel much more alert. Would a tea have done the same? Probably, I just chose coffee. Not because I need it, because I love it. (It loves me too don't worry)
This is me, signing off. I will strive to hit the gym (guy-m) again tomorrow, and I will strive to tell you about it once again.
And I will strive to not be late. I will strive to take more stairs (today 2 flights with my bag winded me, and my shoulder was killing me - still zero progress on the stairs! Insert another sad face here)
Adios mis amigos.
tu amiga, Naomia.
Tuesday Nov. 24
It was another snowy day today.
But that didn't stop me!
I put on some big mittens, and big boots, and drove through the 10'' of snow! Just kidding it was like 1 cm...
I was late this morning, which just made my workout need to be a bit quicker, I just warmed up 5 mins, and did the leg machines. 30 reps each machine though! that's 10 more than I have been doing!
Improvement!
I used my cool down time to do some squats, because today was leg day, and I really want to tone all I can, and didn't want to miss out on squats because I spent extra time on machines!
I try not to be vein whilst working out, but I do enjoy cute workout clothes. and I judge those who wear ugly clothes, or the same thing every time. You know who you are. Why do they have to be so expensive? and why are they everywhere?
I have come to realize that the cuteness of your outfit does not a better athlete make.
But I wish it did. I wish you could accumulate cuteness points and exchange them for a calorie free danish, or an extra hour sleep.
THAT would motivate me to but those outfits that clog my inbox/news feed/ all ads ever...
I am tired again this afternoon. I need to figure that part out and change up. I don't like the 3 PM exhaustion... I want to make improvements and I feel I am struggling with this one.
That is/was all for Tuesday, so I stopped there and didn't post. I continue here...
Wednesday Nov. 25
Here we are once again.
Apparently sleeping in is the new "in" thing. Cuz I did it again today.
I even debated staying in bed. But once I convinced myself the extra 45 mins of sleep really wasn't worth it, I headed to the gym ("guy-m").
I ran for a little bit-le, then stretched, then biked all the way to China! Or so it felt like... the machine said I burned 40 calories, and that was enough for absolutely nothing at Tim's but I quit anyway.
I went a rowed. I rowed all the way to China! at least that one is even plausable... where you can't really bike to China... at least not from Canada... I mean, you can bike to China from like Nepal or Mongolia... provided you had the proper documentation... ANYWAY
I rowed my fake boat all the way to China to find ya. But you said you had to get your laundry clean!
I am getting off topic again.
Rowing over. back on the runner. Ran for another 5, and stretched it all out!
Nothing overly exciting seems to happen down in the WOR (Women's Only Room) but there were a few more people than usual coming down when I was leaving! That is a good sign - staying/getting / trying to be healthy is always a good thing. And I always support trying. Even if it means having to get off my couch (sad face)
HOWEVER - these two older ladies, like in their 50s? late 50s? 60s? I didn't ask. Anyway, two of them came in together, and I don't think anyone at the club gave them a tour before hand! they came in to the WOR with their jackets and bags and didn't seem to have any idea where to put them or where to change! That was entertaining.
Yes I did consider saying something. But I couldn't figure out how to word it without coming across as totally snooty!
I didn't want to discourage these ladies! So I didn't say anything, but I do hope they ask a worker (like someone who works at GoodLife, not just some random person employed in the workforce... although I bet if they did just ask anyone, they could probably assume there is a change room, and tell these ladies to look for a change room....... or ask a worker where the change room is....) my other thought is maybe they just don't have a lock? I should consider all possibilities before just judging... but I won't. I am just going to say I giggled a little.
Looking back I should have said something.
But how? That will haunt me for at least another 2 minutes.
Maybe they will be back tomorrow!? and I can offer advice and guidance. After all I am a seasoned athlete down here in the WOR. I will tell them to avoid those $ store lock and key locks though, not to worry.
Okay well this brings us to 4 PM now, and I was feeling the 3 PM tireds, so I made a coffee, and yes I do feel much more alert. Would a tea have done the same? Probably, I just chose coffee. Not because I need it, because I love it. (It loves me too don't worry)
This is me, signing off. I will strive to hit the gym (guy-m) again tomorrow, and I will strive to tell you about it once again.
And I will strive to not be late. I will strive to take more stairs (today 2 flights with my bag winded me, and my shoulder was killing me - still zero progress on the stairs! Insert another sad face here)
Adios mis amigos.
tu amiga, Naomia.
Monday, 23 November 2015
Machine Mondays
Hello loyal readers!
Thanks for joining me once again on my detailed journey of sweat, [exercise] equipment discovery, and random observations.
Today was a day just like any other. I forced myself out of bed... for once I was a little appreciative of my SO for snoring like a beast. Helped motivate me to leave the blankets.
I was the only one in the Women's Only for the first 45 mins! Which is overly exciting because I enjoy dancing when an extra wonderful song comes on my playlist. And no one wants to see that.
Except for me. and since I was alone, I danced in front of the mirror for a bit!
Today was arm day. Because I 'accidentally' missed Friday.
I used the few machines for arms and upper body, then went to the free weights. Some exercises are getting easier, and I have even increased weight in a few! Which really makes me happy (of course the girls who are on some sort of team come in every day around 5:30 - 5:45 and totally show me up, but they have team jerseys, so they are intense).
I didn't get to watch any sports highlights, so when I was doing my cool-down I felt unmotivated and just walked the 5 mins... Which I'm not ashamed of, I just like to sweat when I work out.
That's pretty much all I did at the gym today.
I've been pretty sleepy this afternoon, I didn't go to bed early, but I thought I would be fine. I know sleep is fairly important for weight loss, but I wasn't going to skip another day for an extra half hour. I would probably find myself sleepy anyway!
I don't have a song to share with you, sorry, and I didn't take any selfies.
But I do have this eCard
Thanks for joining me once again on my detailed journey of sweat, [exercise] equipment discovery, and random observations.
Today was a day just like any other. I forced myself out of bed... for once I was a little appreciative of my SO for snoring like a beast. Helped motivate me to leave the blankets.
I was the only one in the Women's Only for the first 45 mins! Which is overly exciting because I enjoy dancing when an extra wonderful song comes on my playlist. And no one wants to see that.
Except for me. and since I was alone, I danced in front of the mirror for a bit!
Today was arm day. Because I 'accidentally' missed Friday.
I used the few machines for arms and upper body, then went to the free weights. Some exercises are getting easier, and I have even increased weight in a few! Which really makes me happy (of course the girls who are on some sort of team come in every day around 5:30 - 5:45 and totally show me up, but they have team jerseys, so they are intense).
I didn't get to watch any sports highlights, so when I was doing my cool-down I felt unmotivated and just walked the 5 mins... Which I'm not ashamed of, I just like to sweat when I work out.
That's pretty much all I did at the gym today.
I've been pretty sleepy this afternoon, I didn't go to bed early, but I thought I would be fine. I know sleep is fairly important for weight loss, but I wasn't going to skip another day for an extra half hour. I would probably find myself sleepy anyway!
I don't have a song to share with you, sorry, and I didn't take any selfies.
But I do have this eCard
Have a sweaty day!
- Machine Movin Momma.
Friday, 20 November 2015
La Ay Zee
I didn't even hear my alarm go off this morning.
I have an alarm set to let me know when I should be doing a cool down and stretch, at 5:45 and that was the one that woke me up!
I guess I am skipping the gym today...
At least I will be going curling with a work function right? I probably won't be getting my heart rate up to 160, or sweating much, but at least I'm not sitting in an all-you-can-eat doughnut shop.
I wanted to talk about body image today.
It is such a bitch.
All women I have ever talked to, struggle with it! and it seems to be something that isn't quite as big of a problem with men. Yes some, and a lot, of men do have an issue, I'm not saying that, I am just saying that any man I have ever talked to about it, seems perfectly happy with his body! and every woman I talk to seems to have at least 5 things she doesn't like about her body.
And since I am female, that tends to be where my experiences and expertise lie...
This subject sneaks up on your fat ass and smacks you right in the face while simultaneously stabbing you in the back!
One day I look in the mirror at the gym and think "hey I may actually be making progress here!" and then I get home and rememeber that they put those MF-ing skinny mirrors in the gym to make you think that! and then I get the opposite reaction at home! and I think "woah I may have to start working harder, I need to make sure I'm working out 5 times a week. and I still have a long way to go!"
Now those thoughts aren't exactly negative, and I do have the negative thoughts too, it's just that those aren't supportive thoughts. They mess with my head, and break me down a little.
It's okay to sleep in once a week, or twice, or three times! It's okay to not want to run the last 5 minutes of your treadmill session! It's okay to skip your fitness class even though you paid for it, just because you are tired, or busy, or just don't plain want to go!
It's okay to not beat ourselves up over an imperfection.
I know we never let ourselves think that, and we have to keep reminding ourselves to be nice to ourselves.
We need quotes and support from friends, and read magazines... why? I don;t know why! But we all seem to! It saddens me!
Why can't we just listen to that Special K commercial and let it all go and "just own it" as they say?
Because I don't want to own my thighs, I want someone else's!
Why don't I assume I am just as drop dead gorgeous as my man tells me I am? Because I have eyes and he is apparently blind.
Why do my friends not see that I, and most other women, are jealous of them and would gladly trade our (insert body part here ) for their (insert tradeable body part here) ???
I don't know. I DO know that change takes time. Change is harder to achieve for women, change happens in different ways for everyone. You can't change everything. You can't decide or dictate what will change and when or how!
BUT!!!
You CAN change how you look at yourself, how you perceive your journey, and how you talk to yourself, and the way you tell that other voice to go shove it up her fat ass! You can change and decide to start a journey of your own, you can change one small thing at a time (drink more water? go for one walk a week? a month?) any change helps as long as it is helping your mental well being.
You can change the way you look at and judge other women! Even if it's just in your head (please try to keep all judgments of other women in your head. We are already negative enough on ourselves, let's be nice to each other) and yes I am 100% guilty of it. It makes me feel way better about my own ass if I can tear down someone else's. That's just weird. Why does me saying your ass is ugly make mine any hotter? It doesn't. for sure.
And that is my new goal. be nicer to women, be nicer to my ass.
and that is all for today.
Add your thoughts!
I have an alarm set to let me know when I should be doing a cool down and stretch, at 5:45 and that was the one that woke me up!
I guess I am skipping the gym today...
At least I will be going curling with a work function right? I probably won't be getting my heart rate up to 160, or sweating much, but at least I'm not sitting in an all-you-can-eat doughnut shop.
I wanted to talk about body image today.
It is such a bitch.
All women I have ever talked to, struggle with it! and it seems to be something that isn't quite as big of a problem with men. Yes some, and a lot, of men do have an issue, I'm not saying that, I am just saying that any man I have ever talked to about it, seems perfectly happy with his body! and every woman I talk to seems to have at least 5 things she doesn't like about her body.
And since I am female, that tends to be where my experiences and expertise lie...
This subject sneaks up on your fat ass and smacks you right in the face while simultaneously stabbing you in the back!
One day I look in the mirror at the gym and think "hey I may actually be making progress here!" and then I get home and rememeber that they put those MF-ing skinny mirrors in the gym to make you think that! and then I get the opposite reaction at home! and I think "woah I may have to start working harder, I need to make sure I'm working out 5 times a week. and I still have a long way to go!"
Now those thoughts aren't exactly negative, and I do have the negative thoughts too, it's just that those aren't supportive thoughts. They mess with my head, and break me down a little.
It's okay to sleep in once a week, or twice, or three times! It's okay to not want to run the last 5 minutes of your treadmill session! It's okay to skip your fitness class even though you paid for it, just because you are tired, or busy, or just don't plain want to go!
It's okay to not beat ourselves up over an imperfection.
I know we never let ourselves think that, and we have to keep reminding ourselves to be nice to ourselves.
We need quotes and support from friends, and read magazines... why? I don;t know why! But we all seem to! It saddens me!
Why can't we just listen to that Special K commercial and let it all go and "just own it" as they say?
Because I don't want to own my thighs, I want someone else's!
Why don't I assume I am just as drop dead gorgeous as my man tells me I am? Because I have eyes and he is apparently blind.
Why do my friends not see that I, and most other women, are jealous of them and would gladly trade our (insert body part here ) for their (insert tradeable body part here) ???
I don't know. I DO know that change takes time. Change is harder to achieve for women, change happens in different ways for everyone. You can't change everything. You can't decide or dictate what will change and when or how!
BUT!!!
You CAN change how you look at yourself, how you perceive your journey, and how you talk to yourself, and the way you tell that other voice to go shove it up her fat ass! You can change and decide to start a journey of your own, you can change one small thing at a time (drink more water? go for one walk a week? a month?) any change helps as long as it is helping your mental well being.
You can change the way you look at and judge other women! Even if it's just in your head (please try to keep all judgments of other women in your head. We are already negative enough on ourselves, let's be nice to each other) and yes I am 100% guilty of it. It makes me feel way better about my own ass if I can tear down someone else's. That's just weird. Why does me saying your ass is ugly make mine any hotter? It doesn't. for sure.
And that is my new goal. be nicer to women, be nicer to my ass.
and that is all for today.
Add your thoughts!
Thursday, 19 November 2015
Wobbly Legs
Welcome!
How are you today?
I walked up all 5 flights with my bags this morning!
Bad idea, but I made it out alive!
I took the elevator the 2 flights upstairs the rest of the day (I went up 3 times), so I'm still not fully grasping the being more physically active concept. But I don't care.
I feel I slept well last night, and it's getting easier to get up at 4:30 which is nice.
I had a moment of sleepiness after lunch today, but I grabbed a tea (white mocha - mmmmm) and I walked around the office a bit, and tiredness gone!
Gym: The incline treadmill lady wasn't there. I'm worried.
I warmed up on the treadmill today - couldn't convince myself to do the stair machine...
Goal: Stair machine one day next week!
I designated today to be leg day. Tomorrow I am going "curling" with the office. I put it in quotations because I doubt I will do any technical curling, it will most likely be more slipping and ass-falling.
Anyway, the "curling" is why I thought I best do leg day today, and not tomorrow!
I most likely won't be able to post tomorrow, because of the curling. But I will try. I don't want to disappoint my fans.
So this one lady, who is at the gym with me quite often, was ahead of me on the machines (aka she would leave one machine and I would go use it a couple minutes later...) anyway, whenever I would go to a machine after her - I had to lower the weight! I couldn't press, crunch, curl, squeeze etc, as much weight as she could! and that made me push myself harder!
Should I compare myself to others? No, should I if it makes me push myself harder? Okay maybe that's fine... as long as I don't push myself to run a marathon or something. I really don't want to do that. They sound like the worst thing since un-sliced bread!
Song of the day:
Elle King "Where The Devil Don't Go"
Quote of the day:
"I'm out'a here suckas" - Naomi
How are you today?
I walked up all 5 flights with my bags this morning!
Bad idea, but I made it out alive!
I took the elevator the 2 flights upstairs the rest of the day (I went up 3 times), so I'm still not fully grasping the being more physically active concept. But I don't care.
I feel I slept well last night, and it's getting easier to get up at 4:30 which is nice.
I had a moment of sleepiness after lunch today, but I grabbed a tea (white mocha - mmmmm) and I walked around the office a bit, and tiredness gone!
Gym: The incline treadmill lady wasn't there. I'm worried.
I warmed up on the treadmill today - couldn't convince myself to do the stair machine...
Goal: Stair machine one day next week!
I designated today to be leg day. Tomorrow I am going "curling" with the office. I put it in quotations because I doubt I will do any technical curling, it will most likely be more slipping and ass-falling.
Anyway, the "curling" is why I thought I best do leg day today, and not tomorrow!
I most likely won't be able to post tomorrow, because of the curling. But I will try. I don't want to disappoint my fans.
So this one lady, who is at the gym with me quite often, was ahead of me on the machines (aka she would leave one machine and I would go use it a couple minutes later...) anyway, whenever I would go to a machine after her - I had to lower the weight! I couldn't press, crunch, curl, squeeze etc, as much weight as she could! and that made me push myself harder!
Should I compare myself to others? No, should I if it makes me push myself harder? Okay maybe that's fine... as long as I don't push myself to run a marathon or something. I really don't want to do that. They sound like the worst thing since un-sliced bread!
Song of the day:
Elle King "Where The Devil Don't Go"
Quote of the day:
"I'm out'a here suckas" - Naomi
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